5:30 AM alarm rings .. press stop
6:15 AM alarm rings … Snooze
After having 3 days holidays isn’t easy to get up early, although during holiday I always get up 1 hour late than my alarms.
I missed you… my heart whisper
I grab the pillows and hug it tightly
My mind says .. Did I really Love him? Did I really miss him..?
The last time I feel like this it was eight years ago. I never feel any love after that incident happen, after I saw the person I Love .. cheating on me. This story not about my past but about the person recently came into my life.
We didn’t talk for almost 3 weeks now, my mind try to ignore it by keeping myself busy
If my body can talk she say .. sometimes missing a hug (I love hugs.. I feel peace)
And If my feeling is a human currently she’s sick!! she missed Love and being in Love
My logic, my feelings and my body they’re totally in different world. And my soul just watching them, what I understand Logic she doesn’t like to waste her time anymore because she need to achieve her goals.
And when I se from feeling she feel bored and lonely because logic too ignorance she never think about feelings
And the body she just moved according to the logic although she felt something missing. Previously it’s so easy for me to move to another until I challenge myself to stick with one. The body was hurting when I used to moved to one and another and my feelings keep on crying she’s suffered to because she need to fake it and the logic She knew it won’t last.
And the soul she feel happy because of the freedom